Gabe’s Testimony

Gabe’s Testimony

Hey there, I’m what some people refer to as an, “Ex gay.” I used to be a very active member of the Queer community, and then I met Jesus. Here is a very short version of how everything changed. Life before Jesus was a bleak and hopeless affair. I was raised in an abusive home and trying to find ways to cope, with the trauma and the debilitating depression that followed it, was hard. It felt like this un-fillable hole inside me and I was constantly trying to fill it with anything I possibly could; ranging from volunteering at homeless shelters and mentoring younger kids who struggled with their sexuality, to engaging in sexual activities as often as possible and excessive drinking and smoking. None of it worked. It was pushing me into a state of deep depression, which caused me to desire nothing more than to kill myself. Once I had done everything I possibly could to fight that desire and realized nothing worked, I was left destitute. It was during that time the Lord used a stranger to invite me to a church’s youth group. I figured at this point I had nothing to lose so I would give it a shot, I looked up a sermon that the church had done on their stance on gay marriage and it was beautiful. They happened to not believe that the bible supported gay marriage, but they were still committed to loving on the queer community. I didn’t agree with their stance, but i knew if I went I wouldn’t be judged… so I did. I showed up and there was so much love, and acceptance there that I left hungry for more. I came the following week and during worship I lifted my hands up, and instantly it felt like a lightning bolt shot through my chest to the very core of who I was. I could see in my mind’s eye a golden silhouette in the rafters of the church and I some how knew it was Jesus. I could feel his fiery gaze on me. He examined my entire life and I was so completely broken… it was in that moment he made three life changing statements, “I see you, I know what you have done, and i love you.” In that moment I submitted everything to God, including my sexuality, and said, “I give my life to you Lord” That was February 25th of 2015. My decision to follow Jesus didn’t sit well with a lot of my friends and I lost almost all of them, but I gained a family. It’s been a rocky road, but the Lord’s grace, love, and kindness continues to become a reality in my life. I’m running a hundred miles per hour towards Jesus and loving every second of it.

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